There is a lethargy, a true draining of vital life energy that prevents people with Depression from doing what they have to do for themselves. When I am in the pit of depression I sometimes feel like I can’t go downstairs and get something to eat. Often times I don’t and I go hungry. I can’t pick out my clothes. It’s just too hard. So I ware what I wore yesterday that I threw on the floor next to my bed. Sometimes I think that if the house caught fire I wouldn’t have the strength to get out. That’s how brutal Depression can be. It’s not living. It’s just existing. That’s not how life has to be.
I have found moments of strength when someone else was in need. In certain emergencies I’d rise to the occasion and crash after it did what needed to be done. In my sadness and longing to die I have counseled others back from the brink, and they had no idea how much pain I was in because I did not let them know. I was there for them and that gave me some sense of worth. Sometimes it even made me happy. The following video illustrates the power of service, the power of helping others even when you can’t help yourself. If you keep on doing it, little by little you will come alive again.