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Depression Journal Entry

I am feeling very depressed today.  I have been in bed for the last three days.  It feels like someone sucked all of the joy out of me.  Most things I try to do, the techniques I know that can help, seem too hard to do right now.  Notice that […]


How to Break Your Depressed State of Mind

I am no scientist, doctor, or scholar.  But I have suffered for over 25 years from Depression and I am a student of it.  I look for any and every way to Break Depression as long as it hurts no one.  When people talk of Heaven and Hell I tell […]


Two Videos by Noah Elkrief to Help With Depression

Here are two videos “How To Deal With Depression” and “How to Stop Feeling Depressed” by a Noah Elkrief. I could summarize the videos for you but I believe that would be a disservice because it would sabotage their purpose which is to help you to experientially know what he […]


Grace

Beware, I’m going to use that three letter word that some people find more offensive than all of the four letter words, GOD!  If you have read my FAQ then you would know that I add the “GOD” tag to all posts where I mention “God”, “The Creator”, “The Source”, “Source Energy”, “Shiva”, “Allah” “El Shaddai”, “Adanoi”, “YHWH”, “Yahweh”, “Jehovah”, or any other number of names given to the Creator by various religions.  I read the Bible at least four times during those years and beyond and I learned new things each time I read it, and it helped me get through. Do I believe everything I read?  Not exactly.  The Bible is sometimes literal, sometimes, mythical, sometimes parable, and the same verses can be interpreted different ways, so this learning may not result in “knowing”.  It may nearly result in “belief”.  Either way it can be beneficial because what we believe shapes how we interpret our existence and everything in it and what we think my lie beyond.

If you believe in “a higher power” then that is your right and I respect that.  I nor anyone else has the right to judge you.  If you choose to not believe in “a higher power” then that is your right and I respect that, and again I nor anyone else has the right to judge you.  So I would appreciate it if you would permit me to have my belief and write about how it has helped me because perhaps there is a chance it will help you.  If you think, “no way” then there is no reason for you to read this page any further because it has the “GOD” tag.

I can tell you that from my experience, knowledge, and perception I KNOW that God exists. This business that people have saying “my God” and “your God” is a bunch of nonsense.  Every religion likes to claim their own God and all of the monotheistic religions say there is only one God.  And everyone seems to have different names for God so they all fight about it, go to war about it, and slaughter people about it.  Not very Holy behavior.  But all of these religions have a word that is common to all of them, and that word is “God”.  So what’s the problem? Please don’t answer that.  It is a rhetorical question.  I will not argue.

AA and all 12 Step programs talk about the importance of admitting that you are not capable of beating your addiction alone and they therefor ask that you give this up to a “Higher Power” as you choose to define that.  At the very least, a “higher power” refers to something greater than yourself, or in other words, Grace.

I can tell you that my belief in God helped my through six years of hell.  I did not “walk through the valley of the shadow of death”, I lived there.  For six miserable years non-stop I lived there.  I cried out to God and nothing happened.  And I cried out some more and nothing happened.  And then I cried out to God some more and something did happen, and it was miraculous.  It was Grace!  But it didn’t last.  But if I experienced it once, then I know I could experience it again somehow, someday.

In 2011 I found Sadhguru Jaggie Vasudev, a mystic guru from India who was not your average guru.  The dude had a Hummer, a dirt bike, he flies a helicopter, and he does some crazy amazing energy stuff that I won’t get into right now, but I can tell you that millions of people pay attention to him because I is constantly and certainly in touch with Grace, and I found myself on a spiritual path.  The difference between a religion and a spirituality is simply that through religion you learn sets of beliefs and ideologies and accept them as fact.  On the spiritual path you keep your accept nothing as fact until you experience it.  This requires an open mind.  As I have said before, “To know is that I do not know”, and attitude leaves me open to everything.  So I have had experiences that have led me to KNOW, not to believe, but KNOW that God exists.  And that knowledge leaves me open to experience Grace.  So what is Grace?  I’ll let the guru explain it to you:


Mindless Entertainment

For quite a while during my last bout of major depression which also contained a lot of anxiety I was unable to watch television without getting thrown off. Everything was either too violent or too stupid.  When one has a mind that doesn’t shut up one approach is to drown […]


Trying to Get Back to Work

Since coming out of a major depression which was then followed by several events which mad it practically impossible for me to work, I am now at the point where I know I must work or I will fall back into depression. I’ve been on Social Security Disability insurance and […]


I’ve Posted Nothing and I Can’t Shut Up!

Over the last several week I’ve written several posts but have not published them either because I didn’t think that they’d be helpful to others or because I didn’t finish them.  I started to write about this yesterday and the same thing happened.  I didn’t finish the post so I […]


On Becoming Fearless - Arianna Huffington

Free 21 Day Course on Becoming Fearless with Arrianna Huffington (Founder, Huffington Post)  Each day their will be a short talk about a subject aimed at helping you to become fearless, followed by a short 5 minute guided meditation which will relax you and help you to integrate the day’s thought into you consciousness.  It’s free at:

http://www.mentorschannel.com/AriannaHuffington/OnBecomingFearless/LandingPage/885/?aff_id=1014&off_id=40


I Digress

When I was a kid growing up in Brooklyn, NY my home was the place to hang out.  My mom was a school teacher in some of the worst neighborhoods in Brooklyn.  I don’t know how she did it because she was young and pretty and she must have had […]


Exercise for Self Love and Healing the Heart

“Connecting With and Healing Your Heart (Heart Meditation)” – a video by Teal Scott

is a short yet effective way to get in touch with your deeper self by connecting with your heart and offering your self the care, love, and gratitude that heals and strengthens you.

  • If you are a mother or any other type of caregiver then this exercise is for you.
  • If you are the type of person constantly puts the needs of others before your own then this video exercise is for you.
  • If you have been unhappy with your mood, your energy level, or your level of functioning, then this exercise can help.
  • If you have been stressed out or consumed by fearful or worrisome thoughts then this video is for you.


Gratitude, Love, Music, and Praise

I had some rough days last week.  Something was out of whack.  How’s that for a scientific explanation?  Actually I had missed a couple of days of meditation, and had a very small amount of wine on New Year’s eve.  So there you have it. Currently I have some crappy […]


Thoughts About New Year’s Eve

New Year’s Eve can be one of the toughest nights of the year for people with Depression, but it doesn’t have to be.  It is all a matter of what you choose to focus on.  I know that this simple statement sounds trite, and I am aware that for most […]