I want to tell you about a program that really was/is a miraculous blessing to me. Several years ago in the midst of a brutal depressive episode that had lasted for several torturous years I was desperately looking for something to help me. I had active suicidal ideations. I was in tremendous pain. In my desperation I scoured the Internet looking for something, anything to help me that I could afford. I had been on several expensive retreats which gave me some temporary relief and comfort but that relief would always disappear within a day or two of coming home and I was out of money. It was at this time that I found Inner Engineering Online – a seven session online program that cost $150.00 It was the best $150 I ever spent.
Through this amazing program I was able to learn, experience, and therefore know that it was possible for me to manage my mind, my body, my emotions, and my energies in a way that would lead me out of the depths of depression and put me on a path to wellbeing. Right away I experienced a new found sense of hope. This was followed by many new insights into how the mind, body, emotions and energies could be used to develop a sense of stability and relief from depression. As the course continued I was able to experience to my utter amazement that I could quiet my mind which gave me instant relief from anxiety, worry, fear, depression, rumination, and suicidal ideation. The first experience only lasted 15 seconds, but 15 seconds was like a miracle for me. I would then be able to expand that timeframe of equanimity to longer and longer periods. After completing the Shambavi program at the Isha Institute of Inner-Scienses I was shocked and thrilled to experience a 16 hour day of cancelled airline flights, running from terminal to terminal only to get to a flight that wasn’t going to my airport but to another in New York, which then caused me to miss another flight, and numerous other frustrations, with a sense of peace! I was elated at my ability to stay calm, logical, and even happy as I encountered each challenge. This would never have been possible for me before Inner Engineering Online and Shambavi Mahamudra.
Inner Engineering was not able to cure me of Depression from a genetically inherited biochemical imbalance, but it was able to make it possible for me to have a much happier, healthier, and enjoyable life.
Afterward: It is important for people with biochemically based Major Depressive Disorder that the medications can only take you so far. Medication alone will not lead to happiness; it will lead you to a brain state that is not depressed. From that platform of a more “normal” brain state one can learn how to be happy by eliminating the bad habits that are acquired during childhood and while being in states of chronic depression, and to develop more healthy beliefs and behaviors that lead to peace, happiness, and overall wellbeing.
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