Return of Symptons Does Not Mean Return of the Illness

I have a lot going on in my life that would adversly affect a peron without Depression or an Anxiety Disorder. While primarily out of Depression for the past three years I have been under tremendous stress, and it is taking a toll on me. I have experienced some severe depressive episodes and panic attacks but they have been short in duration. They have frightened my wife and myself but while very intense they disipate within a number of hours as opposed to the weeks, months, and years of my past.

Recovery International Spottings, Meditation, Chanting of Bija Mantras, and Xanex have been my primary tolls of dealing with the return of my symptoms. My psychiatrist also inceased my Prozac by doubling it from 20 mg to 40 mg per day.

Even though antidepressants and other mood altering medications are prescribed in different dosages and combinations for each individual I will tell you what medications I am currently taking, Please remember that whatever medications I use have little if any meaning regarding what is appropriate for olthers I can tell you that I am very sensative to medications which often results in me taking slightly lower dosages than what are generally considered to be standard dosages; I often expderience many unpleasant side-effects; and medications often give me a quick boost and then cease to work. I have what is generally referred to as tgreatment resistant depression. FInding the right medications for me in the right dosages is generally an extremely lengthly, frustrating, and unpleasant process. One psychiatrist that I was seeing for a few months nearly had a nervous breakdown trying to treat me. his frustration was quite evident and unprofessional and he eventually told me that he couldn’t help me.

I am currently on 40 mg of imipramine which is an old trycyclic antidepressant; 40 mg Prozac which is an SSRI antidepressant; 1 mg Xanex ER which is time released Xanex, a member of the Bendiazipan classification of antianxiety medications that can become addictive to some, .5 mg Xanex used as needed to relieve acute anxiety attacks; and 36 mg of Concerta which is time released Ritalin, a stimulant for the treatment of ADD. I also take medication for ulcerative colitis and acid reflux disease.

I also currently use massage, guided imagery, hypnosis, and biofeedback to induce relaxation or sleep.

I am not eating as well as I should, hardly exercising, not getting enough social interaction, activity, or sunlight. Breaking Depression has become a full-time job for me which actually exacerbates the situation because living life and laughing are not part of my daily routine. It’s tragically ironic that these components of healthy living are not only the goal but part of the cure, and that not enough time and energy are left to devote to them.

So getting back to the Recovery Spotting that I used as the title for this post I work myself down by putting things into perspective through the use of the Recovery Method developed by Dr. Abrham Low which I outlined in a prior post on. and can be fcound in the Self-Help Toolkit menu on the. .

Here are my Spottings:
A return of the symptons does not mean a return of the Illness.
There is no danger.
Symptoms are a harmless outpouring of a nervous imbalance.
Symptoms are distressing but not dangerous.
Drop the idea of danger and comfort will come.
The will of the muscles overcomes the defeatist babble of the brain.
I spot fearful temper in the form of self-doubt, self-blame, and self-pitty.
Temper is the sworn enemy of mental health.
Outside environment is not aiming at me.
I spot undesirable ecceptionality.
Strive to be good average.
Romanticising is sabbotage.
We take our own dear selves to seriously.
We get will by the amout of discomfort we are willing to bare.
We can withstand torture.
Take the total view.
Don’t ask me how I feel; ask me how I function.
I endorse myself for giving this example and for treating Recovery as a business and not game.